*JUMP FOR JOY!* it was friday today~! i love fridays because of the feeling of satisfaction~ but while i am typing such emotive actions.... i am again sitting expressionlessly staring at the computer wearing my purple jesus robe and glasses.... and also watching ANEGO after a long hard week (akanishi akanishi akanishi akanishi akanishi) the questions of this dorama made me wonder... being alone... right now i could say my major dedication is to my friends.... are boyfriends for people who are tired of their friends.... or just are not entertained enough by them and need to find new avenues of things to do or maybe love is just an experimental type thing you have to try like thai shrimp curry....... anyway what if i am constantly trying to prove myself to people who do not see my effort? things like...being remembered or forgotten or judged doing things and expecting people to do it back... return it because thats what i want what do i want from everyone??? and if ~~ is right... then im blaming myself for things that are out of my control yet too embarrassed to talk about it in front of the people i try to prove myself to W said that the only way to solve problems is to dramatically confront your target, like a brave knight >>>>--------------------I> so why doesnt my disposition allow me to do that? (remember, disposition is a combination of your personality and your destiny. should your personality change, your disposition stays the same) i guess your friends do fail you often (even if its because of yourself).... but they dont fail you as much as any potential love interest might like i said before, being alone. im supposed to be a role model for all my little sophomore friends but... truly, this makes me feel like the worst senpai ever. maybe they dont want to learn from me. my PERSONAL TRAUMA SWITCH is broken.... ke ke ke~ also i want jin to kiss me like that | 
